One day

That I will one day taste my insecurities out through my sinews and know only the evidence of his full reciprocity...
 
That we will someday breathe safe in trust and drenched in lust for every tomorrow that will be us and ours...
 
That I will one day live the pains, the greats, the weights, the depths and the blisses of his heart as my own...
 
That we will one day cry the same tune as we sing a sober melody of truth
 
That one day time will melt into nothing and space will shrivel up in waste as his chest feeds life from my veins...
 
That my seams will weave into his fingers and my fears drown alongside his footsteps as he walks us into the infinite...
 
That all the days, dawns and mornings will one day resemble that single place in heaven
 
That he will one day carry me in his arms the way I bear him in my heart of hearts...
 
That I will someday live dreams, dream realities and be fantasies as he touches me into a blissful paradigm.
 
That I will 1 day
Love,
Lust,
Want
and love once again like this
 
when 1 day will be forever.

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Note: I have not written in a while; except into my journal. This is feeling new again; this writing about my sadness. I have not felt like this in forever and while I detest the feeling, I love the moment it affords me because it sobers me into the realness that is my human heart. I feel indebted here: to forever love the person who made me feel this way. It is pure and beautiful madness.